I’m trying really really hard not to get overwhelmed, but I have so much going on right now that I’m sure I’m going to have a meltdown any day now :( Tomorrow alone I have an important meeting for my internship at city hall, then I have to meet with a professor for the class I’m a teacher’s assistant for, and thennn I have my own class from 2:30-9. On top of that I’m dealing with being overworked at my actual job and trying to have some semblance of a social life. Summer is supposed to be relaxing. When the hell did I grow up?? 

All I want to do is drink my coffee, listen to the new She & Him album, and fangirl about how epic last night’s Once Upon a Time was.. 

BUT I can’t. Cause I’m an idiot and decided it would be a good idea take on an internship, a professor’s assistant position, and keep my current hotel job.

I feel so bad for the people who don’t take 5 minutes out of their day to go outside barefoot and feel the ground, maybe hug a tree like it’s your best friend. Go watch a dragonfly and try and figure out how the fuck it manages to fly, listen to the soft rustling leaves make when they’re forced against each other because of the wind. We spend so much time staring at computer screens and phones that we forget the simple pleasure that is feeling the earth breathe around you and with you. 

Good morning Tumblr :) I’m drinking coffee and listening to Pheonix while I scroll around my dash and plan my vacation to Atlantis… I reallyyyy should be getting ready for work. Fun meeting today at work to start promoting some lgbt weddings and events! How is everyone? Plans for the day?

There’s definitely something wrong with me lately, or rather with my life. I feel like all of my friends are really distant at the moment. On top of that my boss is giving up and quitting soon, and my family is just all off in different directions. It sucks because it’s summer now and school is over. I just want to have fun but I can’t because everyone is in their own world. I have a lot of friends, I’m not going to lie, but at the moment it seems as if I don’t have anyone I can just call up and say “hey let’s go to the grocery store and buy food and cook” or “come over and watch this tv show im obsessed with while I clean.”

Right now I’m going to spend the night with my aunt at her farm drinking beer and watching movies. It honestly sounds really fucking appealing at the moment, just escaping from reality for a bit. 

Looks like my first free night of summer will be spend drinking wine, watching Xena the Warrior Princess, and drawing. WHAT AN EXCITING LIFE I LEAD. 

Guys, I’m such an idiot sometimes. I went out and bought myself an iPad mini this morning. Monday morning of finals week. How the hell am I supposed to pay attention to my finals now?! I just want to play with it and doodle on it and I CAN’T BECAUSE I HAVE 5 FINALS TO THINK ABOUT. 

But really.. it’s so beautiful. I’m obsessed with it. I have so many things to do and so little time. This week will consist of the following: HR Final, Destinations & Cultures final, Meeting Management Final, Food Prep Final, Lodging Ops Final, WORK almost every day, Eye Dr. Appt, end of the semester party at someone’s house, end of semester celebration at a country music club, and I have to find time in there to umm.. breathe. yeah. 

Dear energies in the universe, 

When I said I was bored with life I didn’t mean to do the following: 

- Throw two millions projects at me for finals week

- Have Lana Parrilla send me an autographed photo personalized with my name and a thanks for the drawing I sent her, causing my attention span to shrink to nothing.  (even though THIS IM TOTALLY GRATEFUL FOR) 

- Send my grandma to the hospital. 

- Have me answer the phone at work only to receive a bomb threat and be told that everyone in the building was going to die. 

CHILL.  

It’s been a while since I needed music to drown out my thoughts while falling asleep…

I’m going to spend what’s left of the morning listening to Colbie Caillat while I clean my house and drink tea. I’ll probably bake some cookies and get some homework done too while I’m at it. Come over and keep me company? 

(ALSO I fell asleep last night listening to Laura Marling and let me just say I’m hooked, she’s fantastic)

*One more side note. How the hell is it possible that I still feel sick?? Never drinking recklessly ever again. Never fucking ever.  

I can’t wait for the day that I wake up next to someone I really care about. Legs tangled, promises of pancakes and coffee only after we stay in bed another few minutes. It seems like such a foreign concept, as if it’s something I’ll always be wishing for but won’t ever have. 

I’ve been so busy lately. I’m just really really exhausted both physically and emotionally, but here’s what’s going on in my life. 

My birthday was this past sunday. It was a crazy ass weekend, and not in a good way! My parents drove me insane. Between my sister’s cheerleading competition all weekend to my cousin’s wedding there was literally no time left for me. Which sucked. A LOT. I made the best of it though with a dinner date friday, getting drunk at the wedding, and some theme park time sunday. 

Currently working things out with my dream internship so let’s hope it all goes through. It’s for one of the biggest art events in the world so that’s all the info I’m putting out there for now. I’m just really scared to risk quitting my job for something that may end badly. 

Work is crayyyy, we’re going through a huge change in management so we’ll see what happens there. 

School is driving me up the wall- too much work and not enough time OR motivation. I’m just sooo lazy lately. I’m graduating in December, and likely starting my MBA in January. HELPPP.

As far as a social life goes it’s pretty minimal. I haven’t had much time for life in general lately. I’m also really confused about the roles certain people have in my life at the moment. A friend who was a massive part of my life only a few months ago is now almost non existent. She had a lot of issues, and I almost feel as if I managed to get away from all that negative energy subconsciously. I feel guilty for distancing myself, but she isn’t good for me. Also, new friends have become part of my everyday life and I’m not sure what to make of that. I still have my best friends, which although we haven’t been able to see each other much, are my world. 

I think it’s really fascinating how simple things can make your morning go from super shitty to peaceful and just happy. I’m sitting here drinking hot tea, scrolling around on tumblr fantasizing about houses and celebrities and fashion, and listening to some good music. Happy monday everyone :) What is your morning like today? 

Don’t put up walls and don’t be confusing, all I want is honesty. Just be open with me and tell me what you’re thinking. 

I was going to get started on my 15 page paper.. but then I was like, no. Beer and pizza.